If Karma is the brown and white dog, she looks very similar to my Fennec, who suddenly and unexpectedly passed away April 1st 💔 I am not doing very well accepting this and I realize it hasn’t even been a week but the tears come easily and with enough force to break my heart every time. It’s not only the fact that I had to say goodbye but the suddenness of it…I wasn’t prepared. I knew when it was her time I was going to be a mess but she was fine earlier in the day and by the evening she had gone downhill. I’m rambling, I think but I am not ok in any way so if you could show Karma and Bella and any other dogs you know some extra love…Fennec will always have my heart 😢🐶
Oh Kristen I am so sorry to hear this 😞 it really is such a deep grief with our fur babies, especially when it's unexpected 💔 you were both very lucky to have each other and that will never change. Sending massive hugs and love 💖💖
Thank you, Megan…she was my first love and loss and it is so much more heartbreaking than I ever imagined 🥺
It lifted my spirits a bit though, reading your email and all the lovely things that have been happening! Glad you are feeling better as well and thank you again for the kind words ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear that Kristin. It's so hard to lose such a special presence in your life. Our grandparent's dog died a year ago and it was really upsetting since my brother and I had seen her every week for the past 10+ years, she felt like our dog too, and I missed out on so much time with her when I moved town to study. So I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose a pet who is with you every day. It is definitely grief, and it leaves a void, but try to remember all the good times you had with her and not just her last moments. The pain will eventually ease but for now, and for a long time, it will really hurt, so I'm sending you a big virtual hug!
Thank you for the kind words, Jo. It is going to take a long time for me to stop hurting but I have been remembering everything I love about her and going through pictures. She was my first dog and the very goodest girl ever. Losing a pet is never easy but losing one unexpectedly is…
Thank you for the hug…I appreciate your kindness ❤️
Thanks for the update Megan! Glad to hear the illnesses didn't bring down the whole month and that you had some joy too.
I've been having a pretty darn good week. This year has felt life one never-ending crazy week. I've reached a point where I've made so much progress. A year ago I was still so lost and uncertain and scared. This week I got to celebrate my achievements with my therapist which felt so good. I feel more content than I've felt in a long time.
Not sure if this makes any sense but it feels nice to type it out. Writing this comment prompted me to type out / process my thoughts a little more which was really helpful; decided it didn't all need to be shared here though. Sometimes I really don't feel like journalling unless I am addressing it to someone, so thanks for leaving this space open for us to share.
I love this update Jo!! And love that gave yourself the time and space to recognise the growth and just bask in it a bit! You've worked really hard, you deserve it 🤗💖
Congratulations to you on noticing and celebrating your progress and taking time to process it. Us rando internet folx are rooting for you and the details are no one’s business but your own! Good for you for setting a boundary on what you share. Wishing you a pretty darn good weekend!
Thank you Anna 😊, thanks for rooting for me 😊. It was more that I just felt it would be too long and not really appropriate for this space to brain-dump - but now that I think about it I guess that is a boundary I set without realising it. I'm very new to setting boundaries. I've been talking a lot about therapy to friends and such recently and sometimes afterwards I'm like, hmm I didn't need to share that much with that person 😅. Realising now that just because I CAN share now, doesn't mean I have to. It's not always therapeutic to share every detail 😅.
Anyway sorry for the long reply 😅, thank you hope you have a lovely weekend too and good things this month 😊
I very much enjoy talking about therapy stuff (if you didn’t already guess from my prior comment) but not everyone is entitled to explanations or details about my life. I just read The Art of Showing Up by Rachel Wilkerson and it was so kind and encouraging about setting AND ENFORCING boundaries as a form of showing up for yourself. We are all works in progress and good communication takes practice!
Yes, I like that. Setting a boundary is indeed really showing up for yourself. I’d never thought of it like that before. I think it’ll make boundary setting easier for me to do now - might feel less uncomfortable/ guilty which has got to be good 😊A win win situation 😂🥰👏🏽
I know we’re strangers on the internet, but just wanted to pop in and say this comment made me smile. Congrats on your progress, and may it be only the beginning of the beautiful life you will create for yourself ❤️
Thank you Sophie; for being here, and for your lovely comment. Your comment made me smile too and I really appreciated it ❤️. I appreciate all of you kind strangers here 😊. And thank you, it does feel like just the beginning, which is exciting ☺️
I love the pictures of you with Bella, Gilbert and Karma next to each other. They each give off such different vibes :D It's great to read, that you can truly let yourself be. I liked the picture of letting pressure out of your skull. For me, it's the feeling of everyone shutting up in my head (although it's just me in there) and finding some inner quiet. I have been enjoying the semester break, spending time with my friends and I'm so grateful for them. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm not going to be alone, when I'm finally going to break up with my boyfriend, but I'm still really scared. He's spending time with his family in france for a couple of weeks and I gained a lot of clarity while he's away. But I want to wait for him to come back to have "the talk" and it feels like a very weird limbo right now. I'm sending lots of sunshine your way and I wish us all some cuddles with furry babies :D they do calm the soul
I'm so glad you've found this clarity Leno! It sounds like you're surrounded with many different kinds of love, and I know you'll be able to lean into those more during the hard parts. It's gonna suck sometimes but it's gonna be worth it, well done for doing what's right for you 💖💖
Yeehaw! 🤠 Was listening to Beyoncé last night. Man I love an album that cuts across multiple genres. I’m so sorry you were so sick in March! I saw on insta that Char has been sick for a long time now too. Dang. Y’all can’t catch a break. I’m glad you’re on the mend now, and hopefully Char will be soon as well 🤞🏻Sending you both only the good vibes. I was thinking reading through this that you just captured so much how life can be, the way it can be full of hard things like sickness or depression, but also moments like Gemma’s birthday, or starting possible new projects. As someone who tends to run away from pain, it’s good for me to have the reminder that I can let all the things pass through me, that the good may not last forever, but neither will the bad. Thanks as ever for sharing your life with us. I look forward to your newsletters. Hope April is full of good things and good health for you and yours 💕
Hello my love! Thank you for all the goodest vibes they are seen and appreciated always 🥰 you are absolutely right with that observation - and you know what's interesting? Even with the sucky parts, I see March as a good month. Even though there were moments in it that I hated at the time. It was good. It was enough. Which makes me hopeful that I'll feel that way about my life, overall some day, so what am I worrying about so much? Wishing you & sis a lovely gentle month! 💖
What a gorgeous comment Dee, thank you!! I hope you're feeling lots better soon and get to have lots of cuddles with the mischievous Labrador 🥰 sending love + hugs! 💖
Well a few little parallels. Felt down this morning - until your email popped into the inbox- I so love what you have to say. Honest and inspirational 😊♥️🌸😄! So I think the down feeling is probably just overwhelm and not always having the energy to keep all the balls in the air - all that juggling - and there’s always so much to do to help my daughter who has various additional support needs, create the life she wants. So yes we had a party for her , just like Gem’s. Friends and family who care about her all brainstorming to see how we can help her have a good life and get her out of institutionalised life and into her own home where she can live with the supports she needs to have a happy productive life in her community. What so many of us take for granted. Even on a bad day I’m still my own boss and can make my own decisions. So yes she had a party, had helium balloons and was centre stage which she loved 😅!!! And because of all the positivity that surrounded us I know that goal of her own life will be reached. (soonish I hope). What else…. yes, parallels…. I too LOVE to dance and am doing this brilliant course in Cork. Inclusive dance: Everyone can dance; we focus on ability not DISability , improvisation and choreography. We had a five day intensive and when I stepped into the class I felt some sort of connection with the teacher but I KNEW I didn’t know him. Apparently when he saw me his thoughts went straight to his stepmother. Later after the course all the dots connected up. The common denominator was this lady. She was part of my life as a child, a friend of my mum’s, who helped us a lot when we shared our lives in a rented room in her house. Plus she happens to be your late grandmother too.♥️ I love this synchronicity. And wow, what an amazing teacher of improvisational dance in an inclusive setting Adam Benjamin is. Everyone of us in the class thought so 😄
Oh my gosh Remi what an exciting update!! As I was reading about the dance class I thought "that's so interesting, my uncle runs classes like that..." 😅 What are the chances?? Seems like the universe thinks our families should continue to be connected! 💜
Well done on the party, it sounds ace and definitely a good sign for future things 🤗 you're doing an expert job of juggling it all but also I hope you're able to put it down in moments and just be you as well 💖 sending love!
I was actually trying to list my top 5 songs yesterday and it was HARD. I really love Sweet Honey Buckin' (mainly Sweet!), and Ya Ya for dancing around to! But Just For Fun, 16 Carriages & Amen I think are really moving lyrically + musically! 💖
Yes, it’s amazing how much time my darling daughter, Rachael, takes up!!! But it’s worth it when I see her happy. Not that she’s a bed of roses all the time. Can be very prickly at times 😂but who isn’t! I can be super thorny at times and that’s when I know it’s time for me to chill out. I’d love to one day meet you in person. It could happen! We’ll see what the universe plans! All the best, you’re doing a ”grand aul job” as they would say in Ireland ❤️🌸❤️
My march was pretty crazy, I broke up with my bf of 4 years (I was living with him for 3 of those years). The first two weeks were hard but now it's been real liberating. I returned to therapy and I've realized this break up was the best thing for me. April is looking real good!
I am happy to say I finally got a new job and started yesterday. I was 9+ years at a job that was so wrong for me... But it paid for my son's college. Now I can do something for an organization I love and I can be proud to work here. That being said.... Starting a new job is hard and I am terrified!
I anxiously await you having a podcast. I can't imagine a better way for you to share your message of self love and sheer joy. Love you Megan! You are a bright light❣️🌸💕
Thank you for this lovely update Megan! Good to hear that, even though you struggled with being ill in March you still also had a good month! Perfect example of different things/emotions being able to exist at the same time - something I struggle with sometimes! Luckily I have a therapist who lovingly redirects me to this concept of duality often.
I have had a nasty flu for more than two weeks now and I am sooo over it. Especially as the weather was super nice here last weekend I felt very sorry for myself and angy at my body. Trying to allow myself to feel shitty, whilst also seeking some tiny glimmers of joy in my day, such as lighting a candle or putting some fresh flowers next to my bed to look at all day.
I have been struggling with the tree pollen, and also got covid back in Feb from my kids at work! Being sick is the worst! I’ve been sick a lot more than I ever had before at such random times lol - I’m a recreational gymnastics coach and my kids are the lights of my life but also quite possibly what felt like could have been the end of it with how much they got me sick! LOL!!
My March was a major mix of some good moments and not so great moments. I’m excited for a more Abundant April! Wishing you all the love Megan! and to all you lovely friends here in the comments as well!
Omgosh Heather I could never hate you or not want you here! Seeing your little photo icon and reading your words is always something I appreciate 🤗 so strange that the emails stopped coming tho - were they going to junk or did you have to sign up again? 😯
I am very happy for you guys to take the cooler months off our hands for a while! You do the snuggling up and we'll do the frolicking around until it's time to swap again 😘💖
If Karma is the brown and white dog, she looks very similar to my Fennec, who suddenly and unexpectedly passed away April 1st 💔 I am not doing very well accepting this and I realize it hasn’t even been a week but the tears come easily and with enough force to break my heart every time. It’s not only the fact that I had to say goodbye but the suddenness of it…I wasn’t prepared. I knew when it was her time I was going to be a mess but she was fine earlier in the day and by the evening she had gone downhill. I’m rambling, I think but I am not ok in any way so if you could show Karma and Bella and any other dogs you know some extra love…Fennec will always have my heart 😢🐶
Oh Kristen I am so sorry to hear this 😞 it really is such a deep grief with our fur babies, especially when it's unexpected 💔 you were both very lucky to have each other and that will never change. Sending massive hugs and love 💖💖
Thank you, Megan…she was my first love and loss and it is so much more heartbreaking than I ever imagined 🥺
It lifted my spirits a bit though, reading your email and all the lovely things that have been happening! Glad you are feeling better as well and thank you again for the kind words ❤️
Sending you comfort ❤️ I’m so sorry you’re going through this pain.
Thank you Sophie, I appreciate your sentiment ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear that Kristin. It's so hard to lose such a special presence in your life. Our grandparent's dog died a year ago and it was really upsetting since my brother and I had seen her every week for the past 10+ years, she felt like our dog too, and I missed out on so much time with her when I moved town to study. So I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose a pet who is with you every day. It is definitely grief, and it leaves a void, but try to remember all the good times you had with her and not just her last moments. The pain will eventually ease but for now, and for a long time, it will really hurt, so I'm sending you a big virtual hug!
Thank you for the kind words, Jo. It is going to take a long time for me to stop hurting but I have been remembering everything I love about her and going through pictures. She was my first dog and the very goodest girl ever. Losing a pet is never easy but losing one unexpectedly is…
Thank you for the hug…I appreciate your kindness ❤️
Thanks for the update Megan! Glad to hear the illnesses didn't bring down the whole month and that you had some joy too.
I've been having a pretty darn good week. This year has felt life one never-ending crazy week. I've reached a point where I've made so much progress. A year ago I was still so lost and uncertain and scared. This week I got to celebrate my achievements with my therapist which felt so good. I feel more content than I've felt in a long time.
Not sure if this makes any sense but it feels nice to type it out. Writing this comment prompted me to type out / process my thoughts a little more which was really helpful; decided it didn't all need to be shared here though. Sometimes I really don't feel like journalling unless I am addressing it to someone, so thanks for leaving this space open for us to share.
I love this update Jo!! And love that gave yourself the time and space to recognise the growth and just bask in it a bit! You've worked really hard, you deserve it 🤗💖
Congratulations to you on noticing and celebrating your progress and taking time to process it. Us rando internet folx are rooting for you and the details are no one’s business but your own! Good for you for setting a boundary on what you share. Wishing you a pretty darn good weekend!
Thank you Anna 😊, thanks for rooting for me 😊. It was more that I just felt it would be too long and not really appropriate for this space to brain-dump - but now that I think about it I guess that is a boundary I set without realising it. I'm very new to setting boundaries. I've been talking a lot about therapy to friends and such recently and sometimes afterwards I'm like, hmm I didn't need to share that much with that person 😅. Realising now that just because I CAN share now, doesn't mean I have to. It's not always therapeutic to share every detail 😅.
Anyway sorry for the long reply 😅, thank you hope you have a lovely weekend too and good things this month 😊
I very much enjoy talking about therapy stuff (if you didn’t already guess from my prior comment) but not everyone is entitled to explanations or details about my life. I just read The Art of Showing Up by Rachel Wilkerson and it was so kind and encouraging about setting AND ENFORCING boundaries as a form of showing up for yourself. We are all works in progress and good communication takes practice!
Yes, I like that. Setting a boundary is indeed really showing up for yourself. I’d never thought of it like that before. I think it’ll make boundary setting easier for me to do now - might feel less uncomfortable/ guilty which has got to be good 😊A win win situation 😂🥰👏🏽
I know we’re strangers on the internet, but just wanted to pop in and say this comment made me smile. Congrats on your progress, and may it be only the beginning of the beautiful life you will create for yourself ❤️
Thank you Sophie; for being here, and for your lovely comment. Your comment made me smile too and I really appreciated it ❤️. I appreciate all of you kind strangers here 😊. And thank you, it does feel like just the beginning, which is exciting ☺️
I love the pictures of you with Bella, Gilbert and Karma next to each other. They each give off such different vibes :D It's great to read, that you can truly let yourself be. I liked the picture of letting pressure out of your skull. For me, it's the feeling of everyone shutting up in my head (although it's just me in there) and finding some inner quiet. I have been enjoying the semester break, spending time with my friends and I'm so grateful for them. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm not going to be alone, when I'm finally going to break up with my boyfriend, but I'm still really scared. He's spending time with his family in france for a couple of weeks and I gained a lot of clarity while he's away. But I want to wait for him to come back to have "the talk" and it feels like a very weird limbo right now. I'm sending lots of sunshine your way and I wish us all some cuddles with furry babies :D they do calm the soul
I'm so glad you've found this clarity Leno! It sounds like you're surrounded with many different kinds of love, and I know you'll be able to lean into those more during the hard parts. It's gonna suck sometimes but it's gonna be worth it, well done for doing what's right for you 💖💖
Yeehaw! 🤠 Was listening to Beyoncé last night. Man I love an album that cuts across multiple genres. I’m so sorry you were so sick in March! I saw on insta that Char has been sick for a long time now too. Dang. Y’all can’t catch a break. I’m glad you’re on the mend now, and hopefully Char will be soon as well 🤞🏻Sending you both only the good vibes. I was thinking reading through this that you just captured so much how life can be, the way it can be full of hard things like sickness or depression, but also moments like Gemma’s birthday, or starting possible new projects. As someone who tends to run away from pain, it’s good for me to have the reminder that I can let all the things pass through me, that the good may not last forever, but neither will the bad. Thanks as ever for sharing your life with us. I look forward to your newsletters. Hope April is full of good things and good health for you and yours 💕
Hello my love! Thank you for all the goodest vibes they are seen and appreciated always 🥰 you are absolutely right with that observation - and you know what's interesting? Even with the sucky parts, I see March as a good month. Even though there were moments in it that I hated at the time. It was good. It was enough. Which makes me hopeful that I'll feel that way about my life, overall some day, so what am I worrying about so much? Wishing you & sis a lovely gentle month! 💖
I love that: “the good may not last forever, but neither will the bad”. ❤️
Darling you… so glad you’re back to dancing after poorliness, sending you so much love and virtual sherry trifle (for lunch today 😃)
Trifle for lunch is ultimate adult goals! 💖
Happy to hear you're overcoming the lurgy Megan 🌻🌸🌼🪷
I love your IG posts with Char, your Sister, your dance classes and GRWM's.
I've been quite ill myself recently, and your content always uplifts.
I've seen you're attracting cats to visit you. It's your beautiful energy 💫
I love animals. My parents have a gorgeous golden Labrador.... she loves being mischievous 😅
Thank you for sharing your world with us all.
Looking forward to the next MJC - mail
Remain blessed 🩷🧡
What a gorgeous comment Dee, thank you!! I hope you're feeling lots better soon and get to have lots of cuddles with the mischievous Labrador 🥰 sending love + hugs! 💖
Thank you! It's appreciated! 🪻'Molly' jumps on your knee and gives her cuddles as and when required 😁 she's such a loving fur baby 💜
Happy Sunday! & Happy Solar eclipse for tomorrow! 🎉It's so exciting! I'm loving the energy right now 🥳 ☮️💜
Well a few little parallels. Felt down this morning - until your email popped into the inbox- I so love what you have to say. Honest and inspirational 😊♥️🌸😄! So I think the down feeling is probably just overwhelm and not always having the energy to keep all the balls in the air - all that juggling - and there’s always so much to do to help my daughter who has various additional support needs, create the life she wants. So yes we had a party for her , just like Gem’s. Friends and family who care about her all brainstorming to see how we can help her have a good life and get her out of institutionalised life and into her own home where she can live with the supports she needs to have a happy productive life in her community. What so many of us take for granted. Even on a bad day I’m still my own boss and can make my own decisions. So yes she had a party, had helium balloons and was centre stage which she loved 😅!!! And because of all the positivity that surrounded us I know that goal of her own life will be reached. (soonish I hope). What else…. yes, parallels…. I too LOVE to dance and am doing this brilliant course in Cork. Inclusive dance: Everyone can dance; we focus on ability not DISability , improvisation and choreography. We had a five day intensive and when I stepped into the class I felt some sort of connection with the teacher but I KNEW I didn’t know him. Apparently when he saw me his thoughts went straight to his stepmother. Later after the course all the dots connected up. The common denominator was this lady. She was part of my life as a child, a friend of my mum’s, who helped us a lot when we shared our lives in a rented room in her house. Plus she happens to be your late grandmother too.♥️ I love this synchronicity. And wow, what an amazing teacher of improvisational dance in an inclusive setting Adam Benjamin is. Everyone of us in the class thought so 😄
Oh my gosh Remi what an exciting update!! As I was reading about the dance class I thought "that's so interesting, my uncle runs classes like that..." 😅 What are the chances?? Seems like the universe thinks our families should continue to be connected! 💜
Well done on the party, it sounds ace and definitely a good sign for future things 🤗 you're doing an expert job of juggling it all but also I hope you're able to put it down in moments and just be you as well 💖 sending love!
Ahh Megan I gotta know what you think of Cowboy Carter!! 🤍🐎 I love Tyrant and 16 Carriages
I was actually trying to list my top 5 songs yesterday and it was HARD. I really love Sweet Honey Buckin' (mainly Sweet!), and Ya Ya for dancing around to! But Just For Fun, 16 Carriages & Amen I think are really moving lyrically + musically! 💖
hard agree, I love how B alternates between the two vibes and completely takes us with her
Yes, it’s amazing how much time my darling daughter, Rachael, takes up!!! But it’s worth it when I see her happy. Not that she’s a bed of roses all the time. Can be very prickly at times 😂but who isn’t! I can be super thorny at times and that’s when I know it’s time for me to chill out. I’d love to one day meet you in person. It could happen! We’ll see what the universe plans! All the best, you’re doing a ”grand aul job” as they would say in Ireland ❤️🌸❤️
Gemma’s karaoke plans turned roast made me genuinely lol. So much appreciation for the Queen. ❤️
So glad you’re feeling better too xx
I love how you flow in the good and bad times ❤️.
My march was pretty crazy, I broke up with my bf of 4 years (I was living with him for 3 of those years). The first two weeks were hard but now it's been real liberating. I returned to therapy and I've realized this break up was the best thing for me. April is looking real good!
I am happy to say I finally got a new job and started yesterday. I was 9+ years at a job that was so wrong for me... But it paid for my son's college. Now I can do something for an organization I love and I can be proud to work here. That being said.... Starting a new job is hard and I am terrified!
I anxiously await you having a podcast. I can't imagine a better way for you to share your message of self love and sheer joy. Love you Megan! You are a bright light❣️🌸💕
Thank you for this lovely update Megan! Good to hear that, even though you struggled with being ill in March you still also had a good month! Perfect example of different things/emotions being able to exist at the same time - something I struggle with sometimes! Luckily I have a therapist who lovingly redirects me to this concept of duality often.
I have had a nasty flu for more than two weeks now and I am sooo over it. Especially as the weather was super nice here last weekend I felt very sorry for myself and angy at my body. Trying to allow myself to feel shitty, whilst also seeking some tiny glimmers of joy in my day, such as lighting a candle or putting some fresh flowers next to my bed to look at all day.
Happy Belated Birthday to the QUEEN!!
I loved this beautiful wrapup of your March!
I have been struggling with the tree pollen, and also got covid back in Feb from my kids at work! Being sick is the worst! I’ve been sick a lot more than I ever had before at such random times lol - I’m a recreational gymnastics coach and my kids are the lights of my life but also quite possibly what felt like could have been the end of it with how much they got me sick! LOL!!
My March was a major mix of some good moments and not so great moments. I’m excited for a more Abundant April! Wishing you all the love Megan! and to all you lovely friends here in the comments as well!
Omgosh Heather I could never hate you or not want you here! Seeing your little photo icon and reading your words is always something I appreciate 🤗 so strange that the emails stopped coming tho - were they going to junk or did you have to sign up again? 😯
I am very happy for you guys to take the cooler months off our hands for a while! You do the snuggling up and we'll do the frolicking around until it's time to swap again 😘💖